Wednesday, 13 April 2016

Whitney Lee My Little Sunshine~


Your are my sunshine,
My only sunshine,
You make me happy,
When skies are grey,
You'll never know how much I love you,
Please don't take my sunshine away... 


Happy 1 years and 5 month old my little sunshine... Mumy miss you a lot baby... Really hope that I can reverse the time that already past or miss out and spend all the time with you. Really sad, you growing day by day without me =( For the very first time you learn to walk, I'm not there to watch it. For the very first time you learn to talk, I not there to hear it. Everytime you go for your check up, I'm not the one who going with you. I'm not even know how much growing already, until your grandma told me everything about you. If not, I will not know anything about you. Because of my job, you been neglected by me. I'm such a bad mother cause leaving you with your grandma and let your grandma take care of you. I'm not even know when you get sick and I'm not the first to know that you get sick. I already miss out many thing about you baby. How I wish I could turn back all the time. Everytime when I miss you, I will look back all the photo in my phone and all the video that I take. I miss you badly my girl. Why I will facing this kind of problem after you born? Because of this problem, we live separately, and I can't meet you everyday. When I really want to meet you, I need to go to mum house. WHY! WHY! WHY! WHY I WILL LIVE LIKE THIS? I HATE THIS LIFE!


Sunday, 10 April 2016

Counting Day for my Due Date (3.....2....1...)

11 Nov 2014 , Appointment with Klinik Kesihatan Ibu & Anak again . .
everyday keep waiting for my baby arrival . . not sure which day she will born . .
everytime I look my facebook , I saw many newborn baby in November .
I wondering when will my baby born ? I cant wait to hug her , kiss her and taking care of her .
Seriously , I'm really excited and wondering what will I feel that time ? is it very pain ? will my tear flow down when I hug my baby ? I hate waiting , but no choice . . still have to wait . . what can I do if not waiting ? Everytime when I saw a newborn baby everywhere , I feel jealousy and keep thinking when I can hug my baby , for 9month I been waiting this moment . . I think not only 9month , it been a few year since I not married until I get married . Nurse said , baby head going down into my pubic bone oredy , maybe in this few day she will born . No wonder I feel some pain at my pubic bone everytime I walk , even sit also can feel the pain , maybe she try to move thats cause the pain at my pubic bone .

maybe now his head is around number 4 - 3 . . If baby head going down more lower , baby is ready to born .


**Dear Baby ,
Don't you feel pity with your mumy ? Don't you know how excited I am for your arrival ? Please born as fast as possible . . We can't wait to meet you my dear . Mumy & Dady will try our best to give you the best for your life . We will make sure you always eat well , wear warm and have a comfortable living . Mumy and Dady love you always . You are alwasy our precious one in our life .

**Sincerely , Your Mommy & Daddy .

Labour Pain a.k.a Contraction Pain

Getting closer with my due day make me wondering how is it feel the pain of contraction ?

13Nov2014 , early morning . . I started feel some pain under my abdomen . . one thing that come in my mind is "is baby coming out today?" I just remind myself , "be patient Wendy , maybe not today , She will come out when she want.." I dont care about the pain anymore , I keep busy with my things and work . . But the pain getting stronger when the time past . . afternoon , I go lunch KFC with my family . . that time the pain start make me cant stand for a longer time but the pain really killing me . I tell my husband I start feeling the pain and its killing me . That time all my feeling mix together . . happy , excited , pain , sick , unwell , tired , sleepy and etc . At evening , the pain getting stronger and stronger . Everytime I try to walk , the pain is killing me . Seriously , I also feel hard to describe the pain . All I can do is try to be positive thinking , don't think too much , everything will be okey soon .

Around 8.30pm , I feel extremely tired and sleepy . I try to take a sleep but the pain still killing me , every 5-10minutes the pain is extremely pain . Suddenly , I heard something a "pop" sound then I realise my water breaks . I feel nervous and scared about my baby , in my mind I just worry about my baby , I dont care about myself , coz water keep flowing . That time everyone is nervous , confused , blurr . . luckily , my husband is here with me . . if not , who gonna send me to the hospital ?

Around 9.30pm , I safely arrive hospital . . the pain still killing me . When I arrive hospital , nurse ask me to take urine sample and I saw another woman is trying to push her baby out but the nurse said the mother don't have energy to push anymore so she have to operate now , coz the baby is near her cervix , the baby is coming out soon coz all the nurse said they saw baby head but the mother still refuse to push so they send the mother to operation room . And me , they still check about my cervix and baby heartbeat . After check my cervix just open 2cm , I start worry about my baby condition . I keep praying and praying may God always bless us and may God give me the strength to go through this . After a few hour , one of the nurse say my baby heartbeat is getting down , I feel like wanna cry and keep praying to God . One of the specialist come and check my condition and say I have to operate coz baby heartbeat is getting slow and down . I pray to God , "oh God , please help me and baby , I know You always with us since the baby live inside me , I know You will help us no matter what happen . . amen ." all along the way to operation room , only one thing fill my mind "my baby condition okay or not ? " . My family and husband keep telling " me stay strong , everything gonna be okay , God is watching over us God will help us " . When the opeartion is start , I thinking about God and baby . After a few minutes , I heard baby crying . I keep asking myself , is that my baby crying ? how is she ? is she okey ? is she healthy ? how is she look like ? , I keep questioning myself . Then one of the nurse let me see my baby , when I look at her . . omg ! she is adorable ! thank you my Lord, thank you very much ! I keep saying "thank you Lord , thank God ! thank you for everything !" After operation done , they send me to maternity ward . After a few hour they send my baby for me , feel like unbelievable . . this is my little angel that I carry for 9 month . . finally , she's born on 14Nov2014 ; 12:21am . Thank you for choosing me as your mother my little angel .

The first picture of Baby Whitney . 
Full name : Whitney Lee Woon Qii . Born on : 14Nov2014 ; 12.21am . Weight : 2.5kg . Sex : Female .


My Little Angel “Whitney Lee Woon Qii”

每当看着她睡觉的样子,我就忍不住去亲她,很突然的会想起生她的那一天。那就是奇迹了。还以为我会失去这个女儿, 羊水破了那些医生护士不知在等什么,害到宝宝的心跳慢慢降落,我不停的祈祷希望宝宝坚强点不会有事。我脑子里只想到宝宝的平安和健康。听到医生护士讲宝宝的心跳开始降落了,我真的快要流泪了。等了又等,终于等到我进手术室了。12.21am,14Nov2014他终于出世了,当我听到她的哭声我不停的说“感谢主!感谢你一直陪伴着我们度过这一切”。
原来在我动手术之前,有一位妈妈也在动手术,那位妈妈是在刚到医院的时候她已经在PUSH着宝宝了可惜到最后宝宝还是救不了。听说,那位妈妈的宝宝快要出世了,已经看到宝宝的头发了但那位妈妈已经没力要PUSH了才把她推到手术室动手术。到最后宝宝还是救不了。真可怜。我听到都吓了一跳,快要流泪了。仔细再想回头,那位妈妈的宝宝可以说很大机会可以活着,因为宝宝已经在子宫门了,妈妈的子宫完全开到10cm而我才开到2cm,再加上我的羊水又破了,我的宝宝很少机会可以生存,动了手术过后我的宝宝出世了反而那位妈妈的宝宝救不了,难道神在给我机会当妈妈吗?难道这就是神给我们的奇迹吗?真的很感激所有的一切。
Terima kasih Tuhan atas penyertaan-MU di dalam kehidupan kami , Terima kasih atas karunia-MU iaitu kelahiran puteri pertama kami . . Terima kasih kerana ENGKAU telah menyertai , menjaga , melindungi puteri kami sejak dia didalam kandungan ku sehingga pada hari ini . Mohon Tuhan tetap bersama dia sertai dia sampai bila-bila . 
Ya Tuhan , hamba mohon pada-MU berikanlah kesembuhan pada anak hamba yang saat ini berada dalam kelemahan tubuh iaitu selsema dan kerongkong nya mempunyai kahak yang menyebabkan dia susah bernafas . Dengan KUASA ROH KUDUS MU , mohon Tuhan campur tangan berikan dia kesembuhan agar pernafasan nya kembali normal . Kasihanilah anak hamba yang masih bayi , yang tidak tahu harus bagaimana membuang kahak . Selain itu juga , saat ini dia mengalami kembung perut , dalam NAMA YESUS ENGKAU SINGKIRKAN , ENGKAU BUANG SEGALA ANGIN YANG ADA DIDALAM PERUTNYA . Amen .

My Chubby Girl Growing So Fast


my baby girl big girl already 😊 she's turning ONE next month November 14.. hoorey!! thank you Lord for your blessed since little Whitney in mumy little tummy till the day she born and now she's turning One soon.. may God always bless and protect my baby girl no matter where she go, where she are from evil and danger.. wish you always happy and healthy.. dady mumy always love you ❤ so happy she's growing healthy and happy each day.. now counting day for little Whitney birthday party! 3 weeks to go.. hip hip hoorey!! hip hip hoorey!!

The ❤LOVE❤ Story

We met (April 2012), we start couple almost 1year (26July 2012-19May2013) and we engaged (20May2013)..

We having our wedding photoshoot (02June2013)..

We decide to get married (28Dec2013)..
Time passing, I thought that I can't pregnant maybe because there is sickness inside me so I decide to make a body check-up in March '14.. Either I can pregnant or I have sickness.. I keep telling myself, if I have sickness I will try to cure it until I get pregnant.. After done my check-up, doctor found that a fetus is noted, is it mean I'm PREGNANT?? that is the most unforgettable moment.. After my report is done, YESS!! I'M PREGNANT!!

Today 7 Nov 2014, I'm 37week 1day pregnant.. counting day for welcoming my newborn baby.. really hope that my baby will born on 8 Nov 2014, so we can celebrate our birthday together every year.. but if my little one dont want to come out yet, we still can celebrate our birthday together.. 

Thank you Lord for your blessed in my life from the day I born until today.. Its my turn to feel the pain of labour.. It my turn to step into motherhood.. The new journey of my life into motherhood is going to start.. stay tuned.. ^^




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